Thursday, October 9, 2014
Year of the Lily
My niece turned one today. Wow, it is hard to believe. I love her so much! Happy 1st birthday Lily! Muah!
Saturday, October 4, 2014
Separation
The week of September 25 to October 2 has been one of the best weeks, and for a reason that some would think insane. I do not know why I have this drive for simplicity, but I do. My room is full of trinkets, papers, books, yarn, more clothes and shoes than I will ever wear. Every time I look through stuff to try and simplify, I just can't let go. Yet holding on makes me so miserable.
The past week, I have been separated from my personal laptop. For many, this would be a misery. For me, it was actually depressing to have to pick it up again. It was having trouble charging, and I finally had to take it to a computer repair shop. The issue was actually a lot simpler than what I thought it would be, and (praise God) quite a bit cheaper to fix. I was not able, however, to pick it up last Friday, so I spent the weekend without it. It was AMAZING. I set up my CD player, read books, and as far as doing my schoolwork and preparing for class, I was a lot more on top of things than I had ever been. When Monday came and I knew I would be picking up my computer, I actually prayed these words, "Lord, I know I should be careful what I ask for, but...." I wasn't ready for it to come back. And what should happen, but my keyboard wouldn't work. I ended up taking it back to the repair shop and leaving it there for another day. I was so happy.
My computer is back, and I am grateful for it, but I also miss not having it. It does not simplify my life. It makes it more complicated, fills it with more clutter. Instead of focusing on what NEEDS to get done, all these other things are available to do or look at right at my fingertips. I know that technology can do some wonderful things, and I am possibly overly negative about it, but it is my drug. Where others may not struggle with it, or care about it, I do. I hate that it has power over me. I hate that it has become so necessary to living in this world.
God gave me a much needed break, and for that I thank Him. He showed me that it is possible to live without a personal computer, even when doing schoolwork and teaching.
The past week, I have been separated from my personal laptop. For many, this would be a misery. For me, it was actually depressing to have to pick it up again. It was having trouble charging, and I finally had to take it to a computer repair shop. The issue was actually a lot simpler than what I thought it would be, and (praise God) quite a bit cheaper to fix. I was not able, however, to pick it up last Friday, so I spent the weekend without it. It was AMAZING. I set up my CD player, read books, and as far as doing my schoolwork and preparing for class, I was a lot more on top of things than I had ever been. When Monday came and I knew I would be picking up my computer, I actually prayed these words, "Lord, I know I should be careful what I ask for, but...." I wasn't ready for it to come back. And what should happen, but my keyboard wouldn't work. I ended up taking it back to the repair shop and leaving it there for another day. I was so happy.
My computer is back, and I am grateful for it, but I also miss not having it. It does not simplify my life. It makes it more complicated, fills it with more clutter. Instead of focusing on what NEEDS to get done, all these other things are available to do or look at right at my fingertips. I know that technology can do some wonderful things, and I am possibly overly negative about it, but it is my drug. Where others may not struggle with it, or care about it, I do. I hate that it has power over me. I hate that it has become so necessary to living in this world.
God gave me a much needed break, and for that I thank Him. He showed me that it is possible to live without a personal computer, even when doing schoolwork and teaching.
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